Seriously?

Well, I haven't blogged in a LONG time!! Life has taken a different turn than I had planned. Isn't that how it always is? That wonderful,kind, sweet boyfriend I previously wrote about turned into my cheating, lying sack of crap ex-boyfriend. or Big Stupid Jerk as he is called in certain circles. He is engaged, but not to me!!
August 1st of this year is when everything went down. (Sidenote, if you don't want your girlfriend in Utah to find out about your girlfriend in Las Vegas, make sure your mom's facebook page can't be accessed by said girlfriend in Utah!!) I can honestly say though, I believe that the Holy Ghost was trying to tell me, but I wasn't or didn't want to listen. Having your heart broken is really crappy, can I just tell you? Seriously!! I had thought I had found a good man to be with for eternity, but he turned out to be an idiot. What is it with the men I have chosen for my companions? Maybe being a crazy cat lady isn't such a bad idea. At least a cat won't cheat on me or become a jerk and force me to divorce them. I am hopeful that whom ever I am supposed to end up with is out there somewhere. For the time being, I am going to focus on getting into school and getting to where I can financially take care of myself. I have also started attending the singles ward. How depresing is that? Singles ward isn't nearly has fun as it was in my 20's. By now at age 36, I had thought I would be happily married and have children. And when did I become 36? Where have all those years gone? AAACK!!! I guess my life plan isn't the same as the Lord's plan for now. I will keep chugging along and having faith.